Hip Martyr

I don’t think you understand
It’s not even funny
I will ask you one more time
Where’s my fucking money?

Sometimes I daydream about you
Digging your own grave in the back yard
Because it makes me sick
That your life is not exceptionally hard

Isn’t your house fancy?
Living like a trust fund Sid and Nancy
No expenses spared to dull all your pain
Ivy league legacies, endless cocaine
How much did that suit cost,
Is that satin?
Does your daddy own half of Manhattan?

I don’t think you understand
It’s not even funny
I will ask you one more time
Where’s my fucking money?

Sometimes I daydream about you
Digging your own grave in the back yard
Because it makes me sick
That your life is not exceptionally hard

Sometimes I daydream about you
Digging your own grave in the back yard
Because it makes me sick
That your life is not exceptionally hard

It’s not fucking hard

I love the way your skin is cold
I love the way your skin unfolds
And I will lie beside you
And I will lie inside you
Seventeen boys, seventeen years old

You’ll never have to know that I’m distressed
I never have to tell you to get undressed
I’ll keep you here with me
I’ll keep you inside me
You keep me satisfied and obsessed

Because I’m lonely
You got me thinking
Because I’m lonely
Feels like I’m sinking

I’m not a killer
I’m just drowning
I’m not a killer
Can’t hear me shouting

For you
For someone
For you
For anyone

Because I’m lonely
You got me thinking
Because I’m lonely
Feels like I’m sinking

I’m not a killer
I’m just drowning
I’m not a killer
Can’t hear me shouting

You want confessions
All I’ve got is the obsessions, baby
You want the truth
All I got is the pain

Because I’m lonely
My brain don’t work
Because I’m lonely
I might go berserk

I am a killer
I’m just addicted
I am a killer
I’ll be convicted

For you
For someone
For you
For everyone

I am sick to death of normalcy
I’m a man entitled to more than the world
I deserve to happy
And to have my pick of all the sexiest girls

Don’t like nice guys who look like me
They prefer the guys who will treat them like shit
I don’t understand it at all
The only single thing I can do is –

Make them regret
A day to remember
Tell me your name
Give me your number

I’m the man with the gun
And you all better run
I won’t stop till I’m done
I’m the man with the gun

Look into my eyes
And tell me where you were last night
You’re up to no good

Look into my eyes
Your words are only lies
I know you’re up to no good

I’m the man with the gun
And you all better run
I’m just looking for fun
I’m the man with the gun

I sit alone and watch pornography
Because it is cheaper than a therapist
I am a classic gentleman
I solve all of my problems with both of my fists

Can break your face in half if you
Don’t give me exactly everything I want
So, call me back soon, if you please
Because the other thing I can do is –

Make you regret
A day to remember
You’ll know my name
For making me suffer

I’m the man with the gun
And you all better run
I won’t stop till I’m done
I’m the man with the gun

Look into my eyes
And tell me where you were last night
You’re up to no good

Look into my eyes
Your words are only lies
I know you’re up to no good

I’m the man with the gun
And you all better run
I’m just looking for fun
I’m the man with the gun

Maybe if you were nicer to me
You’d be alive, babe, and here with me, baby
Maybe if you returned all my calls
You’d be alive, babe, and here with me, baby
And who can blame me?
You cannot shame me for my love, babe
Death from above, baby

I’m the man with the gun
And you all better run
I won’t stop till I’m done
I’m the man with the gun

Look into my eyes
And tell me where you were last night
You’re up to no good

Look into my eyes
Your words are only lies
I know you’re up to no good

I’m the man with the gun
And you all better run
I’m just looking for fun
I’m the man with the gun

You can pretend we’re friends
You can pretend we’re friends
In the event it ends
You can pretend we’re friends

You can pretend we’re friends
You can pretend we’re friends
In the event it ends
You can pretend we’re friends

You can pretend we’re friends, friends, friends –

Do you ever dream of me?
Do you wake up in a cold sweat?
Teeth clench at the thought of me?
Mistake things for my silhouette?

Oh, please burn my effigy
I love to be feared and hated
You agree to disagree
Because you’re intimidated

You can pretend we’re friends
You can pretend we’re friends
In the event it ends
You can pretend we’re friends

You can pretend we’re friends
You can pretend we’re friends
In my Mercedes Benz
You can pretend we’re friends

You can pretend we’re friends, friends, friends –

You whine like a little dog
And cry that my words are violence
I’m bored with the dialogue
I want to enjoy the silence

I’m pleased with my enemies
I’ve made many more before you
You’re not much of a penalty
Can’t compare to what I’m used to

Nothing new
It’s déjà vu
It’s déjà vu
Again

Broken necks
And discotheques
I feel like I’m alive
When I am
Sharpening
My guillotine
I cry out in the night

You can pretend we’re friends
You can pretend we’re friends
In the event it ends
You can pretend we’re friends

You can pretend we’re friends
You can pretend we’re friends
I will not make amends
You can pretend we’re friends

You can pretend we’re friends, friends, friends –

Do you ever dream of me?
Do you wake up in a cold sweat?
Teeth clench at the thought of me?
Mistake things for my silhouette?

Oh, please burn my effigy
I love to be feared and hated
You agree to disagree
Because you’re intimidated

Overrated
Devastated
Emasculated
The end.

There’s hell inside my heart
And in my head
Delicately it hangs
By a thread

I’ve made my home inside
A church made of words
But when I speak them they
Come out slurred

Tell me,
Honest as you can,
Is there any love in these eyes?

I feel three worlds away
From yesterday
I’ve seen your flowers bloom
And decay

At 9 o’clock each night
I’ drink your perfume
While I pretend my bed
Is my tomb

Tell me,
Honest as you can,
Is there any love in these eyes?

Oh, take off your skin
Let me come in
Let me come in

Oh, I am your sin
Take off your skin
Let me come in

Sometimes my voice sounds like
A rusted gate
That’s overburdened with
My words’ weight

I fear, I doubt, I think
I think strange things
Like trampling a bird
To break its wings

Tell me,
Honest as you can,
Is there any love in these eyes?

Oh, take off your skin
Let me come in
Let me come in

Oh, I am your sin
Take off your skin
Let me come in

Oh, I can hear you cry
Hear you cry alone
Sixteen hundred miles
From the nearest phone

Begging like a man
Praying to your god
Crying like a child
Dying like a dog

Tear them off the throne
Work them to the bone
Make them feel there’s no one
Ever coming home

I can hear you cry
Hear you cry alone
Sixteen hundred miles
From the nearest phone

Begging like a man
Praying to your god
Crying like a child
Dying like a dog

Tear them off the throne
Work them to the bone
Make them feel there’s no one
Ever coming home

Take off your skin
Let me come in
Let me come in

The doctors told me I was really cynical
Unclean, unsafe, maniacally critical
Take all these pills, the disease might be terminal
Lonely, and violently anti-sexual

I never thought that you would ever
Love me in therapy
It won’t be long before I forget
What you did to me

You always knew that I was quite susceptible
Trying to make sure I was near acceptable
You always said that it was purely chemical
No use, I’ll die alone, it’s inevitable

Never tried to hurt you
No, not this time
Don’t try to save me
No suicide hotline

Call the police on me
I can hear the sirens from outside

Spend the rest of my life, lonely
Serving my time
Even though that I never
Committed no crime

The doctors told me I was really cynical
Unclean, unsafe, maniacally critical
Take all these pills, the disease might be terminal
Lonely, and violently anti-sexual

I never thought that you would ever
Love me in therapy
It won’t be long before I forget
What you did to me

You always knew that I was quite susceptible
Trying to make sure I was near acceptable
You always said that it was purely chemical
No use, I’ll die alone, it’s inevitable

A degenerate
The best you can get
A threat to the state
One to liquidate

I’m your Robespierre
Killed a billionaire
Won’t hear anymore
Cause I’ve heard it all before

No one sees
That it is all killing me
No one sees
That it is all killing me

Just like Christ the teen
Public enemy
Murdered in the street
Wont’ admit defeat

I’m a guillotine
A humane machine
Won’t look anymore
Cause I’ve seen it all before

No one sees
That it is all killing me
No one sees
That it is all killing me

They say the screaming
Won’t change anything
“He’s someone god chose”
But what does god know

Enjoying suffering
Won’t change anything
They say that god knows
But what does god know

No one sees
That it is all killing me
No one sees
That it is all killing me

Killing me, killing me, killing me